The title of this post are verbatim words from my mentor.

Those few words I think embody him entirely, his mindset about how to get things done or achieve a point of awesome. It is not always about the formal path to a point in life, it is about the passion and willingness to overcome obstacles to do what you love. He did exactly that. He lived exactly that. He taught exactly that.

I have not written a blog post in well over a year. Honestly I lost my excitement for programming, the passion I once had. I still struggle to regain that passion I once had – the level of passion he would expect me to perform at. There is a personal reason – some of it ever lingering sadness, some of it chronic depression. I have struggled to put words to everything and I do not want to rehash events. As time has gone on though, now I feel more than ever I need to get back to what I love, not just for me, but for him, my mentor.

He was generous enough to give me advice, encouragement, confidence and direction. At the point he had achieved in his career, he did not need to. But he loved what he did. And he saw that same passion in me. He wanted me to achieve those same goals, achieve a point of success where we could be true peers, achieve a point of accomplishment where maybe, just maybe, I could give him advice. Even though truthfully, he would accept my advice, because he knew all too well, some of the best advice and ideas come from those who are unseasoned. That is exactly though what made him incredible.

I think about where I am now, having moved into a new role at a new company and I think he would only have words of encouragement and excitement. Knowing that in this move I have stepped out of my comfort zone and I am doing something that will challenge me. Force me to learn. Be fucking better. He would like that. He would be proud of that.

As I write this, 476 days later, I still think of how I have to live on his legacy. That excitement of teaching others. The ability to explain things in a metaphorical sense that makes it easy for anyone to understand. To let others live in your passion and become excited about ideas, yours or theirs. Benefit others with your gifts, not to do it just for them or you, but to empower them to do it for themselves. Overall, be a rad fucking human being. He was one who I will probably never equal, hopefully though I can come close, but he was one who I will most likely never find a duplicate of in this life. Our time as friends meant the world to me. I feel as though I may have benefited more, but to him – that never mattered. Thank you for everything. I owe it to you to get back to doing what I love the way I love to do it with a passion that would make you excited for me.

It’s still hard for me to express in words how I feel and how much I am indebted to you. Not a day goes by where I do not think to myself – how would you handle /(work|family|friends|code)/i.

Love you Carlo.

 

Carlo Flores - The Best Human I'll Ever Have the Chance to Know